I wrote this in a note on Facebook in March of this year and found it fitting for today as the many things I am thankful for! I hope you enjoy it!
Just wanted to share my heart with you all.
I thank God each day for making me fat. I thank God everyday for making me 270 pounds, with joint problems, acid reflux, shortness of breath when I walked to the end of the drive way to get my mail, and high blood pressure. I thank God everyday for my snoring at night that led to restless leg syndrome…that led to anxiety and depression….and a HANDFUL of pills that had to be popped everyday of my life just to keep going. I thank God everyday for my low self-esteem that plagued my life for most of my life. I thank God for the fact that I couldn’t sit like a lady because my legs wouldn’t cross over one another. I thank God for the fact that I could barely reach my butt to wipe (my arms are only so long). I thank God for every stretch mark on my thighs and stomach due to being fat.
You are probably wondering why I would thank God for all of that?? Well I can tell you why. If it wasn’t for ALL the things mentioned above I wouldn’t have had surgery, I wouldn’t have you all, and I wouldn’t have this blog. I wouldn’t have been able to be blessed beyond measure DAILY by your friendships. I wouldn’t have made the decision to have surgery. I wouldn’t have been able to truly learn who I am as a person. I wouldn’t have learned how to truly live life to the fullest with the BEST friends anyone could ever have. I wouldn’t have learned what it truly means to Live and NOT just exist. Each and every one of you have taught me something new about myself that I never knew before. Some of you have held my hand through tears and lent me a shoulder to cry on. Some of you have talked me off the ledge when I want to eat my kitchen (yes I struggle with that too). Some of you have been there for me for my life outside of my Bariatric life. You all have inspired me to be a better person. I truly thank God everyday for ALL the ugly that I have been through because I have you all and the new friendships I am forming everyday. I am a perfect of example of the fact that we may not understand God’s reasoning for things in our lives but if we be still and know that He is worthy and able to do great things in our lives we WILL BE BLESSED BEYOND WORDS just as I have been! I love you all from the bottom of my heart!
I hope everybody has had a blessed Thanksgiving with family and friends.
In HIS Grip,