Oh how I have missed my blog! So much going on and so little time! Let’s see from working full-time and then coming home and “working full-time” on the Mom front some things have fallen by the way side. Yes my priorities in life are my kids, family, then work but they also need to be about ME…just a little…so I can be who I need to be for those that matter to me most.
I haven’t really written since Mekayla was getting out of school for the summer. I thought we would have a quiet summer after the first couple of weeks but we haven’t. She has had the best summer this year I think any kid could ask for. She went to Washington D.C. with my mom the first weekend school was out. She came on Friday and we left the following day for our San Diego family Vacation–which by the way was FABULOUS–more on that in a minute. She has been home for 2 weeks and will be leaving for my Mom’s house in Oklahoma tomorrow for Vacation Bible school for the week. She will come back and be home for 2 weeks and then leave again for Chicago with my Mother in Law! Wheeewww! Makes me tired just typing all of that! Oh, and then she gets home just in time for Cheer Camp the second weekend in August. The child has lived out of a suitcase this summer and LOVED. EVERY. MINUTE. OF. IT. I’m just thankful she got all of these opportunities.
Mario has been busy doing a Kindergarten Readiness Program at his school as he will start Kindergarten in the fall (I just had him yesterday, ya know?;-)) It has been great for him because he has spent so much time with my Mother in Law growing up, the interaction and getting ready for the classroom is really going benefit him. He will be on his to my my Mom’s for Vacation Bible school too and is so excited. Myself and the Hubby are excited for some quiet time as well! 😉
Edwin and I have been hard at work day in and day out. That hasn’t changed. But somethings DID change, the fact that I was putting myself on the back burner these past couple of months. I started reaching for convenience and instead of planning when it came to meals. I started slacking on my excercise. I started avoiding the scale because I wanted to avoid what I knew was happening. I could feel it in my clothes. Some “bounce back” after surgery is normal and I have had NONE in almost 3 years but now it is starting. I’m still well within my window of what I consider my “goal”. In saying that, I will not let it define me, it’s a number on the scale. Period. What WILL define me is my choices and actions, some of those MUST change. They say it takes 2 weeks to break a habit and to some extent I agree with that but there are some habits that rule of thumb does not exist under. Like the habit of settling with less sometimes. We all did it as obese patients and it is hard to not do it now because I still have the same messy brain as I did obese. I have to gently remind myself that I am worth more than I am giving myself now.
I have had to really take a step back and rate things and my quality of life and when I did I realized it has been about Quantity, NOT Quality. I must move away from this. I must practice what I preach when supporting others. I must make myself a PRIORITY. I am sharing some struggles here because of several reason. 1) It is hard to read as I type the truth 2) I am seeking out accountability by making it public 3) And for a plan of action to get back on track. I have way to hard these past 3 years to let anything less than what I deserve enter back into my life.
I will get back to basics. I will get back in tune with my tool. I will get back in the gym. I will get back to blogging and journaling. I will get back to happiness becasue I deserve it. I will get back to making ME a priority.
More to come, I have alot to catch up on here….